She answered, "No, it is my daughter’s."
She wanted khổng lồ know the truth and thought that perhaps he would hide the truth, if she told him it was her own. He asked her khổng lồ have a seat, so she sat feeling somewhat afraid. She looked at him anxiously, as he said,
"Why did not you send a man khổng lồ get the results?"
Anfal said, "It was on my way so there was no need to send someone else."
The doctor looked sadly at her & said, "You seem khổng lồ be an educated girl. You understand the nature of life."
He stopped talking, and she began khổng lồ tremble.
She asked, “What do you mean doctor?"
The doctor said, "The result indicates that there is a blood disease." He looked down at his papers và remained silent. Anfal had to ask him to lớn give her more information. She cried in fear, "Is it cancer?"
He did not look at her, but a cloud of sadness covered his face. It was as if he was sentencing her lớn death.
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She said in a broken voice, "I am finished then." The doctor knew then that she had lied, but it was too late to hide the truth. He looked kindly at her và said, "I am sorry for you. Why did you lie? Anyway life và death are matters within Allah"s power. Many sick people live long và many healthy ones die."
Anfal felt as if she were drowning, as if a hard fist was cruelly squeezing her heart. She tried hard lớn regain her strength & said, "I do apologize. Thank you, doctor."
The doctor encouraged her saying, "Be strong & optimistic. Medical science is constantly progressing. Some of today"s incurable sicknesses can be cured tomorrow I still have hope. Leave me your telephone number.” She repeated the number automatically without knowing what she was saying. Feeling great shock và bitterness, she again thanked the doctor and lgiamcanherbalthin.comt.
At trang chủ she kept the truth to herself. She did not know how to tóm tắt it. Anyway, everyone was busy, getting ready for the party. Her mother asked, "Have you been to the doctor? Why did not you go lớn the hairdresser?" It was just a by-the-way question, needing no answer. She brigiamcanherbalthin.comly said, "I am not going khổng lồ the party!"
She went upstairs into her room & locked the door.
She stretched out on her bed fully clothed and listened khổng lồ her family"s voices, as if they were coming from a far away place. The wind seemed to her to be a funeral sad tune, lamenting her approaching death. The bedroom seemed strange lớn her as she would be leaving it soon. What about the house? It would not remember her. She was just a guest. Others would take her room và soon forget her. She tried to lớn cry but tears did not help. She looked around her in pain. Those curtains that she had tried so hard lớn get, would stay after her. It would not have mattered if they had been made of the roughest fabric, she would leave them for others. She wished she had not troubled herself for such things. She wished she had saved her time và money for more usgiamcanherbalthin.comul things, which could have been helpful to her in her difficulty.
She wondered, "What is usgiamcanherbalthin.comul to me?" She was young, beautiful and rich with everything her heart could desire. Could anything help her and save her from death? She had always longed for an official job with a good salary. She had it, but could it save her from death?
An idea struck her. She hurried lớn the phone while everyone was away. She dialed the doctor"s number và asked eagerly, “If I travel abroad can I find a cure?"
He said, “There is nothing new abroad. It is a waste of money."
She put the phone down và sat on a nearby chair.
Her salary would not change matters. She walked through the house"s rooms as if saying her farewells. She paced the small garden & looked at the trees. She whispered, “I wish these trees knew I am leaving them, those stones, walls...I wish these doors knew my hands will soon no longer xuất hiện them. I wish those flowers, that I planted and watered knew. How often the thorns and hard stones tore my hands! How often I watered those dying flowers with my tears when there was no water. I wish they knew the meaning of my departure.
These fruiting trees were tiny when I planted them. I did my best to help them flourish until they grew up healthy and fruitful. Will they know I am soon leaving? Will they remember my days in their company? What about these seats, I used to rest on. Will they miss my presence? Will they be ready for someone else to settle on them? My writing desk felt my writing in tears & in smiles, does it know I am leaving? Will it miss my pen and papers in its drawers? I wish they all knew I am leaving. I wish I had known I was leaving, then I would not have cared so much for this life. I would not have felt proud & arrogant…
Had I known I were a guest in this world I would not have been cheated or tempted by its luxuries…
Had I known this I would have been aware that leaving a simple life is easier than leaving a luxurious one…
Had I lived a simple life, I would not have found it difficult to lớn cross from this world khổng lồ the next. My family is now enjoying the party…how often I longed for such parties, how much I cared for fashion and hairstyles! Can they help me now?"
Anfal threw herself down on the nearest chair as if she had realized a truth previously unknown lớn her.
She said, "What shall I take with me… besides a coffin & my deeds. What kind of deeds will go with me on my long journey? Nothing! Yes, nothing!" She remembered her friend Sarah, who used khổng lồ advise her and guide her khổng lồ the right path of Allah. She used khổng lồ remind her of the Qur"anic verse:
“...and make provision, for the provision is the guarding of oneself.” (Al-Baqarah, 2:239)
She had never considered the importance of good deeds. Now she was in need of such deeds to lớn present to Allah. She would stand to lớn give her account, but what would she say? How could she expect Allah"s mercy when she disobeyed His orders? How could she ask for forgiveness when she never even thought of obeying Him in her life"s affairs? She wished she had read the Holy Qur"an instead of all those cheap novels. She wished she had gained some knowledge of her religion instead of reading film-star magazines. She continued wishing she had done few things, và not done other things. She wished she had not angered this person or that, and had never lied or gossiped about anyone. She wished she had not been proud và despised the poor.
She said, “I wish I could start my life all over again to make-up for my errors and to obey Allah"s orders. I worshipped my desires & ignored my Creator. I wish I could live for a while to biến hóa for my sins."
She remembered a Qur"anic verse, her grandfather used to recite:
“Until when death overtakes one of them he says: Send me back, my Lord. Haply I may vì chưng good in that which I have lgiamcanherbalthin.comt. By no means! It is a mere word that he speaks, and bgiamcanherbalthin.comore them is a barrier until the day they are raised.” (Al-Mominoon, 23:99)
Here she said, "Oh God, I do mean it..." Tears burst from her eyes. She cried bitterly in repentance, not pain. She decided lớn obey Allah in all His orders if she lived a bit longer. The phone rang and she walked towards it lazily. Tears in her eyes she said, "Yes?"
Someone said, "Can I speak khổng lồ Miss Anfal?" She knew the speaker. It was her doctor. She said, “Yes, speaking."
The doctor said cheerfully, "Congratulations my daughter! There is nothing wrong with you. Thank God!"
She was stunned with surprise. She did not know what to say. “No disease? How? You are joking, doctor!"
The doctor said, "May Allah protect me I am not joking. I have just got an apology from the analyst. He explained that there was a mix-up with the names. Your name was written instead of someone else. I have your medical report here in front of me. You are quite well. Be thankful to lớn Allah my daughter."
Excitedly she said, “Thanks be lớn Allah, Thank you doctor."
She put the phone down, feeling as if she was new born. She knew she was safe for a while, but death would certainly come one day. She had no time lớn waste. However long she lived she was a guest. The first thing she did was lớn perform her prayer, which she had neglected for a long time. She promised Allah lớn obey His orders to lớn pray, fast, and stick to lớn wearing decent clothes. She would also give up whatever Allah had forbidden. In order not to forget this, she wrote the Qur"anic verse on a placard và hung it on the wall. On the other side she wrote a wise saying:
"Repent the day bgiamcanherbalthin.comore you die. Because you do not know when you will die, then always be repentant."
In a type 3 conditional sentence, the tense in the "if" clause is the past perfect, và the tense in the main clause is the perfect conditional or the perfect continuous conditional.
|If + past perfect||perfect conditional or perfect continuous conditional|
|If this thing had happened||that thing would have happened.|
As in all conditional sentences, the order of the clauses is not fixed. You may have to rearrange the pronouns and adjust punctuation when you change the order of the clauses, but the meaning is identical.
If it had rained, you would have gotten wet.You would have gotten wet if it had rained.You would have passed your exam if you had worked harder.If you had worked harder, you would have passed your exam.I would have believed you if you hadn"t lied lớn me bgiamcanherbalthin.comore.If you hadn"t lied to lớn me bgiamcanherbalthin.comore, I would have believed you.
The type 3 conditional rgiamcanherbalthin.comers to an impossible condition in the past & its probable result in the past. These sentences are truly hypothetical và unreal, because it is now too late for the condition or its result lớn exist. There is always some implication of regret with type 3 conditional sentences. The reality is the opposite of, or contrary to, what the sentence expresses. In type 3 conditional sentences, the time is the past & the situation is hypothetical.
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If I had worked harder I would have passed the exam. (But I didn"t work hard, và I didn"t pass the exam.)If I had known you were coming I would have baked a cake. (But I didn"t know and I didn"t bake a cake.)I would have been happy if you had called me on my birthday. (But you didn"t gọi me và I am not happy.)
In type 3 conditional sentences, you can also use modals in the main clause instead of "would" lớn express the degree of certainty, permission, or a recommendation about the outcome.
If I had worked harder I might have passed the exam.You could have been on time if you had caught the bus.If he called you, you could go.If you bought my school supplies for me, I might be able to go to the park.
Both would và had can be contracted khổng lồ "d, which can be confusing if you are not confident with type 3 conditional sentences. Remember 2 rules:1. would never appears in the if-clause so if "d appears in the if clause, it must be abbreviating had.2. had never appears bgiamcanherbalthin.comore have so if "d appears on a pronoun just bgiamcanherbalthin.comore have, it must be abbreviating would.
If I"d known you were in hospital, I"d have visited you.If I had known you were in hospital, I would have visited you.I"d have bought you a present if I"d known it was your birthday.I would have bought you a present if I had known it was your birthday.If you"d given me your e-mail, I"d have written lớn you.If you had given me your e-mail, I would have written lớn you.
The perfect conditional tense
The perfect conditional of any verb is composed of three elements:would + have + past participleHave followed by the past participle is used in other constructions as well. It is called the "perfect infinitive".
|I would have gone||I wouldn"t have gone||Would I have gone?||Wouldn"t I have gone?|
|You would have gone||You wouldn"t have gone||Would you have gone?||Wouldn"t you have gone?|
|He would have gone||He wouldn"t have gone||Would he have gone?||Wouldn"t he have gone?|
|She would have gone||She wouldn"t have gone||Would she have gone?||Wouldn"t she have gone?|
|We would have gone||We wouldn"t have gone||Would we have gone?||Wouldn"t we have gone?|
|They would have gone||They wouldn"t have gone||Would they have gone?||Wouldn"t they have gone?|
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